1. So i was watching Hot Steps the other day (dance show with ronnie, michael n some chick on NTV) and honestly it wasnt that much fun to watch. But i was bored and figured i had nothing to loose, right? i kept hopping something rib tickling would happen... i mean, we are talking Ugandan tv here, right?

so after a few minutes of looking at Ugandans trying to b kewl on the telly, i came to the conclusion that, yes, cameraz make people do funny things.

first off, the judges come off like they are at some quiz, like they are afraid that Mirinda (official sponsors) will ask for their money back or failing that, a change in presenters. I sometimes feel like writing them a little note telling them to be kawa! tis their show! and more importantly, they do know each other, they havent just met and so they aint out to impress each other.

I think its a result of this whole " i have to be serious and formal" thingy that we take on possibly because of the way we were brought up. If everyone is paying attn to you, you cannot afford to come off as goofy and yet know what you are talking about. Instead u come off loooking like a clown, which if u really think about it, is okay... u just come off loooking like one, doesnt mean u are one!

Reminds me of that statement people used to make, in reference to being in the world but not of the world " just because i sleep in a garage, it doesnt make make me a car".

I would actually say charles Mwiyeretsi something or other , the presenter, is the more interesting person to watch although u end up trying to figure out if he is going to lisp or not or...... wont go there, i myt actually meet the chap one day, nanti kla is ssssssssssmmmmmaaall!

ooo yes, the funny part.... these chaps (judges) put the kiddies through rigorous cheorographed steps (Note: do not compare these steps and mode of teaching with "Making the band" or "so you think you can dance" or whatever) after which they picked 24 (i think) from the 47 left.

Now, what these chaps forgot was the mic. was turned ON so we could clearly make out their elimination process. Imagine the contestants "suprise" when they got eliminated......

2. I realized something a whiles back...something i had forgotten about me, something that i let get to me and make me vulnerable. I guess i kinda forgot to look in the mirror to remind me of what i looked like and who i am.

Does that ever happen to you? Like you take major crap from people and then its like you wake up and realise that you are above that?

I think its just that point we all have to reach individually. I have heard so many people say "T! you are better than that!"

No kidding! i know that..... but until it clicks somewhere in me, i aint moving coz i'l still be fighting with other aspects about me. its kinda like waiting for all your watch dails to line up.... if they aint in sync, you will watch the silly face until they do line up...then u can finally move on.

That one moment is all it takes. That one moment for everything to click. That one moment...for you to clearly say "forget you".

Interestingly enough (yes im almost thru with the philosophy) once u cross that line of "self awakening" no matter what happens and what peeps say, ya aint going back.... word!